Biting the Bullet.

Since moving back home I haven't felt like I've had a real focus as such. Other than meeting up with family and friends and being an adult. And I guess settling back in. But I've felt like I need more than that.

I pondered the idea of going back to education as my highest level is GCSEs. But the problem is I have to pay a considerable amount given my age to do that. Money that I don't have unfortunately. Especially considering I love learning. The other side to it is if I were able to find the money I don't know when my dad will die. And it's only about 6 months away from the end of his prognosis. The course I was looking at is not the kind of course you can have time off of, it's like a fast track kind of course.

So I did some more thinking, more around the voluntary work basis, but I feel I know I would be capable of doing it so why not look for paid work. A big jump I know, especially seeing as I've never had a job before bar a paper round years back if you can class that as a job.

I ended up looking at job sites just to see what was out there locally in the health care worker role as thats what I want to do initially. Many said that job experience in the field was required but there was one that stood out that didn't. They were more bothered about your passion to work in the field. Which is exactly me to a T. Thankfully though I was able to put in the aspects of care that I have been involved in with my dads illness. So whilst I don't have professional experience, I do have personal experience.

So I bit the bullet, wrote up my very lacking CV and sent it off to them. I don't know how long it takes to hear back or if I will even hear back at all. But this is all very exciting!

I will probably freak out if they ring back for an interview given the fact I have never been interviewed for a job before but I'm sure my family can help me out on that front.

I'm not entirely sure what my care coordinator will say as only last week she said she did not think I was ready for work. But my mum is supportive of it and she says I know me best so she really hopes I get somewhere with it.